Man gets very weary if he does not take pleasure in the thing. To love this God, there must be something inside him. "As a hind sighs for streams of water, so my soul sighs for you, O God!" (Psalm 42:1) Finding water for this hind is survival. We don't force her to drink, but it is an imperative for her. It is the same for us. We long for Jesus Christ!
You realize how good and gentle this Jesus is when you go through the trial. This name has a deep meaning for you. There is a determination that comes from within you.
Malachi 4: 1-3
If you are among the wicked, you will be like this. Where could you hide? Nowhere. God is speaking to you, but you are passing over. When you live as you live, you will pass by. God is merciful, but there is a time.
"The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous shall take refuge in it, and be safe." (Proverbs 18:10) This is something very important. "Whosoever taketh the name of the Lord, let him depart from iniquity." (2 Timothy 2:19) Didn't God see when Hitler was killing the Jews, the children of Israel?
This is an invitation to become aware. This is the time to find Him, but you have to look for Him in the right way, with all your heart. God cannot lie, He lets Himself be found. When the people at Pentecost heard Peter's speech, their hearts were deeply touched. "Those who received his word with a good heart were baptized" (Acts 2:41).
You are free to live as you wish, God does not oblige you in anything. But in the House of God, we are dependent on God. God has given you free will, you have the possibility to change your life. Just your passage leaves traces, people complain about you. But when your heart is pure, when you pass, you leave the thirst.
"Moreover, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is worthy of approval, whatever is virtuous and praiseworthy, let this be the object of your thoughts." (Philippians 4:8) When you have that, people want to come up to you because you are a man of peace. "Always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth." (2 Timothy 3:7) Let's each examine our thoughts. What do we think about others?
The big problem is our thoughts. The devil is cunning, he plays with people. You think you are the most beautiful, but you forget that the other person also thinks he is the most beautiful. So it's the fighting! You think that everyone admires you, but they don't care about that.
God is ready to forgive you.